Deep Blue

I started going to the beach recently. Yeah messila beach. I like it there… it’s not as crowded like it used to be. I take forever to tan, but it’s coming along nicely, I’m loving the the tan lines so far. It is truly moves me how the gentle ebb and flow of waves have the ability to take away all my worries and disconcerted thoughts. Perhaps the cancer in me feels at home next to all the crabs and fishies, but i just know this is how my heaven would look like. Sun, sand, and sea. [A more cleaner and purer version tho:p]

I was laying in the water the other day, taking in the gentle sun.. when it occurred to me that i could see nothing but blue within my vision. Nothing - when looking ahead - but crystal clear blue. The sea and the sky. Almost merged into one endless canvas. I can’t remember when there were only shades and tints of one colour within my view. It felt amazing. Blissful. It really got me high. A rare sight, when everything around seems overpopulated. I felt so fortunate to have felt such intense pleasure unexpectedly….the heavens really do smile at you sometimes.

Happy Birthday :D

 

 

 

To me !!! I’m 22! On the 22! XD

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Lost

I see it crawling against the solid walls of mine. Sometimes faltering, yet still finding the way upwards steadily.

I look at your direction, and I know you will nod in agreement. Will you still listen to me, even if you can look right through me. 

I crane my neck upwards, I have finally lost site of it. I do not know where it went, but I do know that it is there. Went up in a broken line. 

I find no sense when trying to grasp any meaning behind this, though I know there is one, maybe even many. 

I wonder where it is. How far it went, and whether I can bring it back again. To the point where I can see it, and be fully aware of it’s existence. It’s size and shape. 

I hear you telling me there is no way around it. Sometimes things are meant to happen. In my mind, there is a way, but I cannot remember it. You say, don’t let your eyes be your enemy. You will see it, eventually.

I want to see it. I want to have the comfort of it being within arm’s reach. I don’t know if I can handle it being so far away, out of sight. 

I know you are smiling, and I know there are many things that will be left unanswered. 

I wait. Each night I wait to see it. I blame the darkness, and the starless skies. But I will eventually look at it at again. 

 

 

 

What I want :D

For my birthday : p

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